Scott, you're crazy.

I did not write about it.

So I'm writing about it now- I got my raise! yay! :)

Interesting...

So I'm watching this show- called Superhuman on the Science channel- and there's this artist... a 13 year old girl who started sketching amazing things at 5 years old- and swears that God found her and told her to start drawing- that they plan her pieces together. She has a close and personal relationship with God. So abnormal in a world where people are either completely convinced that there is no God or 100% convinced that only their God is accurate. Anyways- check it out- artakiane.com- she's damn good if you ask me.

Anyways- that was kind of an off subject- but I read this poem today and I don't want to forget this line:

There is no adventure in hesitation.

I've been asking myself why I'm holding back for quite some time... I dont go out, I avoid meeting new people- I dont know if the idea of it scares me or if maybe I'm just too damn lazy. I have all of these ideas about things I want in my life- and it's not like I'm really that busy. I have plenty of time. And yet I still haven't gone to find out about that martial arts place down the street or gone to the recreation center to find out about art classes- haven't even rearranged my room this year- which I usually do almost every other month...

I'm stagnant.

Not the most attractive way to describe yourself. Gotta start working on that.

Anyways- here's a little something to think about. Yay Texas.

:)

My boss wants to keep me. Says he'll match what I'm offered... talk about awesome. Let's see if it works out. I think I decided I do want to stay here (until I get into med school, that is).

Speaking of- I put in all my applications, I've put in all my money, my applications have been sent out. I am literally just waiting to hear if I'm good enough for anybody. God- I wish I would have studied more and skipped less during college. I mean- I had a good GPA, but- think of what it could have been if I'd actually TRIED! crazy.

Speaking of CRAZY- i work with these people... :)

Sometimes- I fear for my life.

On a happier note, Jon has found his life mate. His "de facto" fiance- see good times below!!

Should I leave?

So I realize that I haven't written anything in forever. I've done so much since the last post- I've presented research in San Fran and I've been to Hawaii and New York- and that was only this year, so I probably owe many more stories... but in an attempt to let it all out, I have to talk about this- even if it's only with myself.

I was offered a new job today. It's not a concrete offer but I could make it happen if I wanted it. And it's a good job- making 10 grand more than I do now... which is big considering I've been asking for a raise for a LONG time now but thanks to hiring freezes...

so here's my Pros and Cons List:
Pros to taking the new job:
More Money
Looks good on my resume
New Learning experience
Prestigious School/Lab
Brain Dissections

Cons:
The boss: very strict, doesn't care, abrupt, and cold
lose my tuition discount with UTD/wouldn't be able to take during the day classes
I'd have to leave Dan/BrainHealth

Part of me knows that this is the best possible opportunity. It would look really good for me and it's a big step up pay grade wise. But I just- I love Dan so much. Not only is he a great boss- laid back, easy to communicate with, objective and willing to get to the bottom of gossip and office drama- but he's a great person- honest and funny, ethical, a family person, brings birthday and holiday cards, makes the job fun. The other boss is known for being a hardass. He's known for being cold and short with people... if you're not good enough, he let's you know. Versus my current boss who will send me a thank you email after I do my job.

I have to think for the future- I want to get into medical school. I will get into medical school. I want to go to UTHSC-SA I think, but TCOM or UTHSC-Houston is good with me as well... I just dont want to be stuck in a job, miserable.

The thought of leaving my current boss makes my stomach turn a little bit. I'm emotionally attached- and I need to be able to remove that emotion and see the scene objectively- but just knowing what the daily interaction with this person will be like...

I just don't know what to do. I'm confused. Maybe sleeping on it will help.