Scott, you're crazy.

I did not write about it.

So I'm writing about it now- I got my raise! yay! :)

Interesting...

So I'm watching this show- called Superhuman on the Science channel- and there's this artist... a 13 year old girl who started sketching amazing things at 5 years old- and swears that God found her and told her to start drawing- that they plan her pieces together. She has a close and personal relationship with God. So abnormal in a world where people are either completely convinced that there is no God or 100% convinced that only their God is accurate. Anyways- check it out- artakiane.com- she's damn good if you ask me.

Anyways- that was kind of an off subject- but I read this poem today and I don't want to forget this line:

There is no adventure in hesitation.

I've been asking myself why I'm holding back for quite some time... I dont go out, I avoid meeting new people- I dont know if the idea of it scares me or if maybe I'm just too damn lazy. I have all of these ideas about things I want in my life- and it's not like I'm really that busy. I have plenty of time. And yet I still haven't gone to find out about that martial arts place down the street or gone to the recreation center to find out about art classes- haven't even rearranged my room this year- which I usually do almost every other month...

I'm stagnant.

Not the most attractive way to describe yourself. Gotta start working on that.

Anyways- here's a little something to think about. Yay Texas.

:)

My boss wants to keep me. Says he'll match what I'm offered... talk about awesome. Let's see if it works out. I think I decided I do want to stay here (until I get into med school, that is).

Speaking of- I put in all my applications, I've put in all my money, my applications have been sent out. I am literally just waiting to hear if I'm good enough for anybody. God- I wish I would have studied more and skipped less during college. I mean- I had a good GPA, but- think of what it could have been if I'd actually TRIED! crazy.

Speaking of CRAZY- i work with these people... :)

Sometimes- I fear for my life.

On a happier note, Jon has found his life mate. His "de facto" fiance- see good times below!!

Should I leave?

So I realize that I haven't written anything in forever. I've done so much since the last post- I've presented research in San Fran and I've been to Hawaii and New York- and that was only this year, so I probably owe many more stories... but in an attempt to let it all out, I have to talk about this- even if it's only with myself.

I was offered a new job today. It's not a concrete offer but I could make it happen if I wanted it. And it's a good job- making 10 grand more than I do now... which is big considering I've been asking for a raise for a LONG time now but thanks to hiring freezes...

so here's my Pros and Cons List:
Pros to taking the new job:
More Money
Looks good on my resume
New Learning experience
Prestigious School/Lab
Brain Dissections

Cons:
The boss: very strict, doesn't care, abrupt, and cold
lose my tuition discount with UTD/wouldn't be able to take during the day classes
I'd have to leave Dan/BrainHealth

Part of me knows that this is the best possible opportunity. It would look really good for me and it's a big step up pay grade wise. But I just- I love Dan so much. Not only is he a great boss- laid back, easy to communicate with, objective and willing to get to the bottom of gossip and office drama- but he's a great person- honest and funny, ethical, a family person, brings birthday and holiday cards, makes the job fun. The other boss is known for being a hardass. He's known for being cold and short with people... if you're not good enough, he let's you know. Versus my current boss who will send me a thank you email after I do my job.

I have to think for the future- I want to get into medical school. I will get into medical school. I want to go to UTHSC-SA I think, but TCOM or UTHSC-Houston is good with me as well... I just dont want to be stuck in a job, miserable.

The thought of leaving my current boss makes my stomach turn a little bit. I'm emotionally attached- and I need to be able to remove that emotion and see the scene objectively- but just knowing what the daily interaction with this person will be like...

I just don't know what to do. I'm confused. Maybe sleeping on it will help.

Applying to freaking med school

It feels unreal. I'm actually applying for med school. As in, the papers are in, the essays are complete, I need to mail my check and then... may the interview requests come pouring in.

Also- I'm typing this from my new laptop. One of those purchase that I probably shouldn't have made but working on a 6 year old dell inspiron that takes 15 minutes to start up... good grief, new technology is wonderful.

PS- I went to Hawaii, New York, and Austin this month. Pics to come.