remembering...

I just remembered something I brought up last night and Bruce pointed out... let me start differently.
Last night I reminded Bruce of when we went windsurfing in Texas City with our Uncle Tom. It was awesome- I had a hard time but got the sail up and went about- 10 feet- before falling into the water. Bruce however picked it up instantly and ended up sailing about a half mile off shore before dropping the sail and getting stuck. He didnt really know how to turn around and come back so there he was- 1/2 mile out from shore- waving his arms around and probably yelling but we couldn't hear it. So uncle Tom starts swimming out to him- it literally took him about 10 minutes to swim out to him! And then he got the sail up and had Bruce lay on the back of the board while he sailed it in.
Anyways- the point is- Bruce looks and me and says "if you hadn't mentioned that story, I would never have thought of it for the rest of my life, and that was such a great day".
And I started thinking of all the memories that I'll never be able to remember- about a multitude of things- but especially my dad.
When you think of it that way- in that finite and terminal way... it's why alzheimers is such a scary disease. You lose parts of your life!!
I know this is all just part of life- but still. Does this bother anyone else???

eat drink and be merry.

I went out with my cousin Bruce last night... and like always, we started having deep conversations about everything from religion to science... we talked about my dad and his mom... it's weird- we're family but he's also like one of those friends where even if you haven't seen them in months, when you do it's like you've never been apart. Neat to have such a friend in a cousin.


The night before that Laura and I went to the dog and duck pub... really neat place actually. I have to say I thoroughly enjoyed myself.
Anyways... I have an MCAT on saturday... Hopefully I'll do better on this one. Wish me luck!

restlessness

Today, I experienced the worst restlessness I have ever felt. If I have did not have my mcat class and rent, today would have been the day I packed up myself and rugger and moved to a different city.
All I wanted to do today was to travel. I almost didn't care where it was or who went with me... I just wanted out.
I dont like this feeling and I honestly hope that it doesnt come forth again any time soon.
I really need to get out more.
Maybe this was brought on by the dykes kids. Maybe it's yall's traveling butts that make me feel as if I'm standing in one spot.
just call me kermit (i'm greeeeen with envy.)

family.

oh and here's one of my god-daughter. Just so that you can be jealous of the cuteness.
She really is adorable. And to think, I thought she was weird looking when she was born. And now she's beautiful. (I bought the shirt... can you tell?)

I figured out how to add pictures!!!!

It's been raining lately. It feels odd when it rains and it's over 95 degrees. Somehow it's not quite as refreshing as cold rain. I never feel clean after warm rain. I always have flashbacks to Captain Planet (he's our hero) and the acid rain they used to protect the planet from. Where's Captain Planet when you really need him??


Today I found out that the Greenbelt is dry. That's right everybody- BONE dry. Not even at the place PAST where we went last time. I hope Germany has more water than the greenbelt.


I also realized that I did not include Cambodia in my list of places I wish to someday visit. Just thought I'd throw that in there.

*Steph- I love this pic of you :)

I'm re-volunteering in the Children's Hospital of Austin- I'm back in the ER and I love it. Friday was my first time back and it was the most gruesome and awesome thing that I have seen in a very long time. It was great- let me explain. Patient: 9 yr old. very brave. connective tissue disorder (think stretchy, bendy joints and skin that can strecth in amazing ways).
Pt fell off of a bunk bed and got their leg caught in between the rungs- and thanks to their tissue disorder the skin... well it just kinda came off of their leg. IT WAS AWESOME. They didnt even cry! I was really impressed- and it was awesome to watch. Three hours of stitches with a really handsome doctor. It was great.

Now look at this awesome dog. What could I possibly want to do more than stay at the lake with this handsome fellow? And I have to admit, the lake isn't too bad this time of year. I actually have a little bit of a tan! That's right people. I'm not such a whitey (take that ken.)

Anyways, Liz & Steph- come back already. I miss you guys.n Oh and Kenny, the real world called. They'd like you to join them sometime this decade.

Human nature

For friends/the lighthearted: I love you all, and this may not, or may, apply to you.

While I believed myself to be safe from prejudice, arrogance, and incivility here on my personal blog, I have been proved incorrect yet again.
Let me clarify. When I began this small blog, I mainly did so in order to leave a message on Stephanie's blog. However, I really do wish to begin documenting my life and I believe this to be a good way to do so.
As of now, I truly understand the reality of having a diary on the internet. Completely random people, people who have absolutely no idea who you are or what you're made of, can write absurd and baseless comments on your blog. Anonymously of course, since leaving your name and a way for me to read YOUR personal thoughts would be far too invasive.

For those of you that do know me, you know that I spend hours a day in the public library, know that, naturally, I respect and appreciate the wonders that are our national rights. Ahh, the joys of the public library- no sarcasm. I really do love it.

I just wanted for my appreciation of the public library and the freedoms I enjoy daily is clearly expressed.

Oh, and did I mention the freedom of speech that I have also- you know, the one that lets me bitch about a library, and similarly the freedom that allows for people to leave rude comments on my blog. I really like that principle, too.

I hope my grammar and spelling have reached a level of correctness that is acceptable to the blog community.

help me out!

How do i post pics on here??
damn my computer illiteracy.


So guess what. I am running low on money. I knew it would happen soon but... I was really hoping that it would last longer. Now I get to wait until my loans come in... August 30...
there goes my life.

wowee.

I got to see my brother's family this weekend. Its the first time I've been out to their house since before dad died- the first time i've seen my 3.5 yr old nephew (who calls me aunt kashell).
As I'm sure you all expected- I think they are adorable kids (and by you all, i mean liz- and maybe steph)- I got to see their vacation bible school finale- they sang a song about archeology and did the eqyptian dance. It was... original. And if you've ever seen a three year old try to wiggle his butt, you know it was cute (on top of that, he stuck his tongue out almost the whole time-he was concentrating really hard...)

So I made the promise to myself to study more for my mcat during the week- so i looked up the austin public libraries and went to one last thursday... its called the Twin Oaks library... it is literally in an old shopping center- its like an old Dollar mart- and I swear I feared for my life- or at least my health. There was an old guy that kept coughing... an older lady of whom which I am sure has not showered in quite some time... you get the picture. And I really think that i heard gunshots from the anterior of the building while I was studying.
The Moral of the Story: Public libraries... are as ridiculous as the buildings they are located in.

PS- liz, steph and ken are now traveling the world. be safe.

:)

Top 10 places I want to go
Greece
Paris (again)
Spain
New Zealand
China
Brazil
South Africa
Egypt
Morocca
Australia

Ps- my top 10 actually includes about 20 places, and these are in no particular order.
For those of you who already HAVE been here, I hate you.

I just finished taking my first practice mcat. My brain has never been so abused in one day- no, in 7 hours.
Someone, come get me drunk ;)

another chance...

to pretend that I'll keep up with a blog.
Thanks to one stephanie crane and her blog's blocking of NON-registered post-ers. So here I am. Posting.
I'll try to come up with something witty soon.